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27 weeks preggers

2009-11-03T08:45:34Z

I was reading all my old entries from like 2003. Man, I really liked him. Its weird when I really think about everything. He's all I wanted back then...and now...7 years later...he's here with me despite my 2 1/2 year old and #2 on the way. Like...why does he still like me? I was with daniel for 4 years and never....i dunno. Im just gonna enjoy this and hope it lasts for awhile cuz I do like him a lot. He's weird...makes me smile lol. bfdjksbfkjsdbfkdsabfksjbf lol i dunno. im going to sleep. love you.

ikea 2010 kitchens

2009-10-13T05:09:55Z

I got an apartment with a good friend of mine. Its pretty neato. I like it. Its bare, but not as bare as it was a week ago. We went on a little ikea shopping spree. Now we have a futon! who doesnt lol. Dylan likes it. Im working full time tho so it seems like hes always at my moms. He doesnt love me anymore! Hes such a handsome little boy. I absolutely adore my little dyl pickle. Babys doing good. 24 weeks. 6 months. I can feel her kick a lot more. Umm...Im gonna go watch field of dreams. The end.

something interesting hahahahaha

2009-09-18T22:14:09Z

its a girl!

dont use my name as an adjective

2009-09-12T08:38:40Z

Its weird how quick ones life can just flip. I should be used to it by now...seems like it happens all the time. So...lots of new stuff. Some that i regret and some that are alright and some that are gonna change my flippin life...again, lol. Ill try and sum it all up with as little words as possible.

Right now is probably not the best time to be updating.

I messed up earlier this year. Im good now.

Dylans 2 1/2....hes so big! learning new things everyday...its pretty amazing seeing your own child learn. Oh, and the things he picks up on...lol. Kids really do say and do the dardest things...go figure...lol.

Guess what? On sunday i'll be 20 weeks pregnant! Ceazy x2! How am I gonna do it??? Same way I did it before lol. I find out the sex of the baby on monday. Im hoping girl but all a mom really wants is a healthy child. Cant ask for more than that. Halfway there.

Okay thats all for now.

miss ya

okey dokey

2009-02-27T03:20:45Z

this is gonna be quick. dylan turns 2 next week! hes such an amazing kid. im happy with my life. in love...deeply with both my boys. practically married...i think its called engaged. lol. lets just say theres a ring on my ring finger and i like it, lol. ummm...i start college in april. criminal justice. life will get better, slowly but surely. my parents will come around eventually. thats all for now, gotta go. love you d&d...always and forever.

May 8 2009...Mark that date. Send a wedding gift if youd like, lol.

909 212 9880....text me or call me. I got unlimited everything lol.

happy early birthday bri and caitlin...

another noise and youre in timeout

2008-07-22T05:37:43Z

coke

Smoke cigarettes til the day she dies

2008-06-20T07:33:04Z

im meeting up with christen on saturday for breakfast. Im excited. Havent seen her in years. That reminds me...i was supposed to call matt so we could hang out. Havent seen him since 06, but i talk to him all the time. Kandice is coming down in october. Buuuut...best of all, ill be able to see my baby in a little over 3 months. My love. Then i'll have both my boys for the rest of my life and ill be happy, right? I gave up on someone else. He has someone and i dont want to fuck that up. Plus i love dmz. I really do. A lot. Mrs Zirkle? Kristin M. Zirkle...hmm

make sure you stop cuz im coming through

2008-06-03T04:41:40Z

i just realized something. Our anniversary IS june 8th. I thought it was may 8th. I was wrong and HE was right. Are guys the ones that are supposed to forget? lol hey at least it gives me time to send him a card. Angels 2 outs away from a w. I found you cb, kinda. Oh, frankie just got #22.

none

2008-04-08T23:32:56Z

dylan's a year old. it's so weird still, but i'm enjoying it.

actually, he's 13 months. lol

i should be moving to cali. well, im in cali right now. i don't think i have to go back to vegas anymore. i hope not. im happy here.

where are you cb?

timsalmon @ 2008-02-19T18:54:00

2008-02-20T02:54:14Z

dylans almost a year old.

USC vs. Arizona State

2007-11-23T03:07:45Z

I havent updated in a long ass time.

Dylan's 8 months old!!! He's so big. I can't believe how much he's grown. He doesnt really look like me...he looks almost exactly like his pops.

It's so cute...he already said his first word...kinda. He says "arthur, arthur, arthur." I dont know where he got that from, though. He says "mom" too...but only when he's hungry, lol.

Im going back to cali. I dont think we're going to GA. We went over the summer. We'll prob just move to Covina. Yeah.

I dont really know what to say. I miss you-know-who so bad. Soon enough.

happy thanksgiving everyone.

oh, yeah....new number (909) 510-2085. I answer texts more than calls cuz it's a pre-paid. Yeah, Im a broke ass momma.

THANK HEAVEN FOR LITTLE BOYS <3

2007-04-21T03:38:16Z

DYLAN NATHAN
MARCH 6 2007
8.03 AM
8 POUNDS
19'1/4
IM A NEW MOMMY
IT HURT LIKE HELL BUT IT WAS WORTH IT
MY BABY BOY WILL BE 7 WEEK IN A COUPLE DAYS
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH
IT LOOKS LIKE ME AND RABBIT MADE A PRETTY CUTE BUNNIE
EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE KIDS ITS GREAT (TALK ABOUT ALL NIGHTERS))

i'll wait for you

2007-03-02T04:19:57Z

I might be having a baby this sunday.

wow

Im so scared. My parents and sisters are coming this weekend and my mom and sisters are staying for a few weeks to help me out. Im so nervous!!! Its gonna hurt so bad.

my little dylan nathan.

pray to god everything turns out alright.

found out for sure daniel's locked up for 2 years in tapha...tathapi...i cant remember what its called. I have it written down. His mom says he's doing really well...that makes me happy. I hope everything turns out alright. Im willing to wait those 2 years for him. Maybe we can start a family someday...thatd make me happy...dylan too, lol. I just wish my parents could give him a second chance. Time will tell.

omg...Im having contractions!! lol...ok, not really...im just practicing. how am I going to know for sure when its time?

god bless everyone

dylan...my son...still hasnt kicked in.

goodbye to you, goodbye to everything that I knew

2007-01-02T22:44:37Z

Im not in rehab anymore. Im still in mexico, though.

we´re leaving on friday, but im not going back to chino. im never going back. my parents are sending me to las vegas for about 3 months and after that we´re buying a house in atlanta.

so, my baby boy will be born in vegas.

i feel so sad all the time.

im not going back to daniel.

yeah, life will never be the same.

timsalmon @ 2006-11-14T12:34:00

2006-11-14T19:34:24Z

I gotta make this quick cuz Im not supposed to be online.

GUESS WHERE THE FUCK IM AT?

A Drug Rehabilitation Center

for smoking crystal meth.

this is my 2nd center. I was transferred here from another center.

IVE BEEN LOCKED UP SINCE JUNE 21st!

Oh my god, I cant take it anymore. Ill be out soon, though. December 21st. By order of the courts I have to complete a 6 month drug rehabilitation program or else I get 5 years of jail...blah blah blah.

I havent seen daniel since june 21st

guess what else? this is exciting, lol
IM 24 WEEKS PREGNANT. It's going to be a boy. I found out while in rehab. I wanna name him Dylan Riley...Dylan Riley Zirkle. Aww, I cant believe Im going to be a mommy. My expected due date is March 7th.

Weird, huh?

So yeah, I got, like, a little more than a month left of this rehab shit and then Im freeeeeee.

daniel's locked up for 6 months too...but in jail.

I miss daniel so much. i love my babys daddy.

no more crystal meth for me.

oh yeah, to make things worse...Im in mexico city. my mom brought me all the way over here cuz she was afraid i was gonna escape, lol. now, i cant escape cuz i got no money and no identification to cross the border. oh well, im almost done. i miss my house. my family.

aww...im gonna be a mommy.

pickles are bad

2006-06-20T01:31:06Z

I love daniel...even if he doesnt

here daniel, type something: but i do love u kristin baylee zirkle my wife always and forever nor death do us part

aww, he just wrote that. i love his punk ass. my bunny. lol.

my f'ing mom has my state disability check, how am I supposed to pick up without a fucking check?

I wanna get spun before they take me in tomorrow. jk. I just wanna see what my pickle-and-goldfish-breath boyfriend would say. I love you.

court tomorrow at 8. i gotta show up this time. just got plead guilty and say ill enroll myself into a rehab center within 30 days.

yeah yeah yeah.

we're at amys house right now. me. amy. daniel. my sister diane. my sister monica. iits fun for some reason. i miss these times. we used to kick it with amy all the time. watch, ill remind amy of mcdonalds right now.

lol. this makes no sense, but thats alright, cuz im in a good mood and that all that matters right now. :)

alright, im gonna go now.

i love you guys and hope each and every single person who reads this has a marvelous, splendid, magnificent, downright bombass day. take care y'all. smile, laugh, love, and have fun.

xoxo

kr!s

PS- hi becky. just felt like sayin that dont know why

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK AND ALEX!!! If you read this, lez-bo, tell markie I said happy b-day and love him lots and hope he's drummin alright, lol. take care

:)

maybe if you didnt stay up all night

2006-06-14T18:32:26Z

ha, aint life a bitch and a half.

been living on the streets for the past 3 months...literally living on the streets. staying at parks. it sucks ass. this is so not me.

what the fuck happened to me?

was in jail...again, not me

gta

got court on the 20th...if i dont go to rehab before then im gonna get locked up again for awhile. im so fucking retarded. god, i never thought this would happen to me. im such a fucking lowlife good for nothing junkie

still with daniel. always will be

lifes so different...been through so much, most stuff i wish i didnt have to deal with

wow...spun

see what happens when you get hooked on meth?

its not fun. dont do it

i need some shit...i want some shit...i have some shit

what a loser, huh?

hope youre all good

im sorry guys

sorry for letting everyone down

hey, at least i get state disability for being at the nuthouse

how embarassing is that?

dont end up like me, dont ever touch dope. meth sucks...but i cant get away from it...well, i can handle it to a certain level, but i admit i have a problem and need help

ok, see y'all

miss ya, cb

yeah

2006-06-14T18:18:08Z

sheesh

2006-02-25T01:50:51Z

i was mad, but now im not

im actually feelin it.

spinderella.

you make me wanna la la

2006-01-04T00:19:05Z

Life is good at times and bad beyond belief at others.

New years was great. Me and daniel were "grounded" so my parents left us home alone and went up to sacramento. haha.

invited lisa, matt, ray, lauren, jenny, and fernie over and had a new years spun-a-thon. fernie and jenny left and lauren, matt, lisa, my babe, and me spent the night spinning and smoking bud. i love the smell of bud, but i prefer spinning.

First 2 days of this year were spent spun off my ass. Lost my voice from hitting the bong too much. I sound like ashlee simpson. Its kinda cool, lol.

Parents got back last night. Meh.

Oh yeah...me and daniel got arrested on friday. We were going to pick up and the guy wasnt home so we parked in a cul-de-sac (sp?) thing and a cop drove by and came back and searched us and shit. It was an 85 jet black monte carlo with blue neon lights underneath. the driver was my sisters bf...all gangsta'd out. parked in the middle of the street. on a friday night. we were gonna go up to lytle creek, so we had all our shit on us. 2 bongs. 4 pieces. a bunch of empty baggies. it sucked. the cop let me and my bf go into my dads custody, though. we got tickets and gotta go to court in march. fucking thing. oh, and they took my fucking purse with all my makeup. i covered for my sister, though. i dont want her getting caught up in shit like that.

anyway...daniel should be getting home soon. i wanna go up to lytle creek. we're always there.

i forgot what i was gonna say...

daniels home. im happy. :)

timsalmon @ 2005-12-12T17:05:00

2005-12-13T01:08:07Z

sp sp sp sp sppppun as a mother fucker.

i found someone who sells 8balls for 70000000000000000000 seventy dollas...nice.

im gonna go to the car wash and make some money from the change machines, lol.

i need a new piece too.

someone needs to pick up cuz i only got about a dub left. uh oh. lol

im so happy. fucking shit. lol.

timsalmon @ 2005-11-18T13:48:00

2005-11-18T21:54:16Z

words of wisdom:

dont do drugs.

NEVER take a hit of crsytal meth.

trust me, theyre illegal for a reason.

ive been on shit for about 2 years now and now i have nothing.

im on prozac...depressed out of my mind...cant do anything unless i got shit...everytime i get money, i spend it on shit. my bf's an addict too...thats even worse. i lost everything. no job. lost a 23,000 truck...my phone for awhile....my familys trust, a lot of friends, and worst of all...i lost my happiness and desire to live.

kris: the meth addict.

life aint so sweet in the passenger seat no more.

im gonna go take a couple of hits to drug induce a fake sense of happiness for a little. make life not seem so bad....make life as good as it was when i was sober.

i miss my life.

i love you daniel. you have until sunday to prove your love to me. dont hurt me cuz ill never love another.

make me or break me.

and just how much you hurt me, its hard to tell.

we belong together

2005-10-07T02:34:11Z

i love you daniel michael zirkle.

my trucks gone, but my babys by my side.

my boyfriends living with me. i get to see him all the time...and that makes me more than fucking happy. i love him so much. im gonna spend the rest of my life with him. im sure of it too.

we have our moments, but theyre not bad.

i love him...i need him. hes my everything.

honestly, if it werent for him, i dont think id be breathing right now. never been this in love before. im happy. i have nothing, but i have everything at the same time. i couldnt ask for a better person to share my life with.

someday, baby, you and i are gonna have the things that we need.

its getting better all the time.

my lifes starting, and my babys by my side...im ready to live.

thank you daniel.

lifes so sweet in the passenger seat.

and, of course...i live for little moments like that.

so cute.

im gonna live where the green grass grows

2005-08-21T04:50:06Z

I miss daniel so fucking much.

I got to see him the other day for, like, a couple of hours. We just walked around the park and talked.

It sucks that I cant even talk to him on the phone. Ive never missed someone so much in my life....I really do love him.

I kinda wish we were still living in my truck. Those 3 months that we lived together...just me and him....best 3 months ever...and they could have been even better if I hadnt been so afraid to let my heart make a move every once in awhile. I was afraid of being hurt...

Things are getting a little better....I think.

spin.

timsalmon @ 2005-08-16T23:02:00

2005-08-17T06:08:41Z

i feel like a fucking loser.

I DONT HAVE A FUCKING VEHICLE.

no, wait, I DO.

my fucking truck is locked up and my dads non working truck is parked in front of it so that i cant drive it.

ITS MY FUCKING TRUCK THAT IM FUCKING PAYING FOR>

fuck man. i hate this. it fucking makes me more mad and fucking depressed. im still fucking paying for that truck....why ccant idrive it.

IM PAYING FOR IT>

IVE PAID EVERY CENT ON THAT TRUCK.

and yet its locked up so i cant drive it.

im allowed to go out, but i fucking hate having to ask for a ride. its fucking bullshit.

all i wanted was to go buy a lighter

fuck you world.

its times like these when i wish i was dead.

i had everything, and now im slowly losing it all....no, ive already lost it all.

im not a kid. you dont have to lock me up in the room all day.

i think im 5150

i feel like shooting myself

anxiety

fucking jumping out of the balcony

anger

throwing this fucking keyboard at yoour fucking head.

fuck you. i dont know what to do....everything fucking sucks...;nothing is good anymore,,.,there is not one thing that could make me happy right now.life is worthless...just like me. im a piece of fucking shit.

im gonna beat the shit out of my fucking pillow and then smoke it.

FUCK YYYO YOU

die.